Someone asked me this week ‘I love your blog! Do you still write it?’
I haven’t written a post in a long time. I hadn’t even thought about writing a post. My response was ‘I’m just pretty busy’.
In all the success of this year there’s not been much time for reflection. It’s been planning, projection and forecasting. I’ve been present sometimes; maybe not as often as I’d like.
I’m now running a successful business as a Personal Trainer, at one point had 20 clients all who have progressed massively in the past 7 months and I am so proud of. I’ve learnt a lot from my co-workers, the industry, and the people I train! Everyone has an incredible story that I am lucky enough to be part of.
Alongside this I have completed some more training at The Actors Class. Got cast in Showcase Company and performed a showcase at Tristan Bates in August, and got myself an agent!! (Thank you Mary.)
I am still the Assistant at The Actors Class - which is growing and growing; Becoming more and more successful! Mary is a force of nature.
I have also been performing a double bill show with the Underground Clown Club "Knock Knock" and the new show "Whose There?"
And to top it all of I’ve fallen in love. Which also unromantically takes up a lot of time... but it’s time that I choose to spend with that person.
All in all, as you can see free hours to write has been limited.
The response of being too busy saddened me. One should never be too busy to reflect.
It’s taken me getting the flu to actually have some time with my thoughts and I’ve landed on the notion of balance.
Balance of work, Acting, social, me time.
And currently I am very out of kilter.
Work, PT life and Assistant Work about 75%, (I’ve got bills to pay) Acting about 15%, social life 8% and me 3%.
And I find a lot of my Acting/ social / me time is often overshadowed with the thought of work; timings, programmes, clients questions etc. Especially the me time. I’m hardly hitting the gym, I’m not reading, I’m not able to switch off and watch a good film or series for the fear of having to go to bed to get up at 5am.
The balance is not right.
The dilemma comes in because I love what I do. PT, assisting, Acting, social. So, the tipping of the scales isn’t going to be easy but something we all need to be aware of.
I’m an actor. Everything I do is to support my Acting Career. The PT life is one I can never really fully submerge myself in entirely, not for long anyway. I cannot run myself into the ground to survive through show week with flu. - that’s not on either. And I can’t be tarnishing rehearsals with the thought that I haven’t printed client documents or forgotten to update my google drive.
This busi- ness has always been a thing for me. Every term at school I’d want to do everything and burn out. Uni I did the opposite - basically nothing. And for the past 3 years I’ve done relatively well to find the balance. Probably because I hated catering so much I never overdid it or felt guilty about having a day off.
As I am loving every aspect of my life, it's even harder to turn things down - it's now about choosing what is most important.
I've had a shift of focus and hopefully by the New Year I shall have some restoration of balance.